Quote: In theory I want my daughter to have full access to her Dad and for us to have a decent relationship as co-parents, but I wonder if that is a pipe dream and it is better to get out sooner rather than later.
I don't know if you are a visualization gal, but there is one which might be useful to you at this point. It comes from Susan Anderson's book "The Journey from Abandonment to Healing." Do you have that book? It was a topic of conversation over in Hopefulness a while back.
What you do is visualize your dream house. First, think of where your dream house is located. Mountains? Ocean? Forest? Farm? City? Suburb? What would it look like? Mansion? Cottage? Apartment building? Tent? Cave? How would it be situated in relation to the sun? Other buildings around it, if any? Visualize the front door. When you enter, what do you see? What colors? How does the light play on the floor? Move into the house and see what it's like. Then, visualize who is there with you. People, animals? What are they doing?
When you can get in your house and see these things, you might get some good insight into what you need. I've seen people do this make great revelations.
If you can't do visualization for some reason, try breaking it down into small chunks and try to visualize small stuff, like sounds, or smells or patterns and textures.
Hope this helps.
FYI, I don't think you are being paranoid about where you live. I was trying to make the point that I don't know where you live so I don't know your laws. I admire your ability to selectively divulge information. It's really very strong.
