I've been reading sporadically, but work has been so astronomically busy that my head is swimming. It's nuts!
I also see some major strength in you and your current course. Kudos for putting your needs first and finding good reasons to keep on with this theme.
Quote: If you look at Betsey over in Hoping and all she has done to "improve" herself in the past two years, and it still isn't enough to interest her H in their marriage...
Yep, this is very true. And while last year, this very thought would have devastated me beyond belief (I would have seen the rejection as a personal thing), I no longer think that way.
I really want a healthy R with myself and my SO/H. I no longer want to be tied to a person who douses his emotions with alcohol or other avoidance behaviors because it's too painful. The excuses are many, but face it.... one day the piper is gonna come a callin' and it's going to be time to do the work. After all, didn't that happen to us?
I am thoroughly disgusted with the fact that the person I thought I married is so closed off from humanity. What part of "good for me" is that? I am finally free from the bondage of being married to someone who really doesn't want to improve. Bah humbug...
So, this is exactly how I feel about Mr. W...
Quote: So I have got to think of him as strictly business.
Amen, sista! I hear you loud and clear!
Betsey
p.s. So when are you moving to Hopefulness?
"There are only 2 ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."
Betsey
