After lying low Monday and Tuesday, the antibiotics kicked in and I felt human again by Wednesday. I had a guest over for dinner. She's a friend, local woman of 56 whose H walked out on her twenty years ago when her only daughter was seven (just like in my case!) She is a smart and intelligent woman, I've always liked her. H and I have known her since about 1994, but I have never talked to her about personal stuff until H left.
She told me that the fact of her H walking out twenty years ago still had a profound effect on her. The prime years of her life were compromised and spoiled. And her now twenty seven year old daughter has been seeing a therapist for the last year to help excise some "rancour" as she put it.
While friend was here for a very pleasant evening, the phone rang and it was H. He just wanted to tell me about an item of breaking news that he spotted on a website. He said he wanted to tell someone, and I was who he thought of! The call lasted only one minute.
Then D went up to his place this morning with his landlord. I got a call from H after she arrived, to say she had arrived safely (he never usually does that), then told me he had more credit on his credit card than he originally thought. The statement came here and I sent it up with D. But it hasn't come here in ages, so I assumed H had told then of his new address. But he tells me that he hasn't received a statement in many many months. Then he says, he would have to write to the bank in other city to let them know about his new address, as if that were a very onerous task. I made no comment. He said a new credit card was due to be sent and that I should look out for it. I still made no comment.
I can't figure out if he is just
1) TOOOOO darn lazy to inform the bank 1) Wants to have some control over me, instruct me about stuff 3) Wants to assert his territorial rights over this house 4) Likes me to remain in the caretaker role. 5) Needs an excuse to get in touch.
Anyway, at the end of the call he asked, so what are you doing this weekend? I gave a vague reply, and wished him a good weekend himself.
Tomorrow I am going out for the day with older guy. If the weather is good we go for a long drive to visit an interesting place and have lunch out. I get to practice my language skills.
I am trying to enjoy the moment more these days. Take the good, accept the bad and do my best, whatever.
Livnlearn
"The unexamined life is not worth living" - Socrates
