I have been lurking in the shadows reading and absorbing others posts for a while now. I stopped writing because I didnt feel I was getting the right help here. I felt like I was constantly being attacked. I finaly woke up when I started noticing my W was talking to another man. She and I had it out on Monday night. I finally talked to her about my affair and admitted to her that I had had an PA with other woman. Thats such a catch 22 there because it took me having an affair for her to stop having hers and for to realize what she had at home. We finally discuss her affairs and mine. It will take some time for me to convince my W that I only have eyes for her again. We stayed up most of the night hashing things out and finally around 8 am we asked God to help us and it was like a gun shot went off all the sudden the love that we had for one another just came pouring out of us. We spent the day together looking for a new place to live since our lease in our apartment is up at the end of the month. I know we have a long road ahead of us learning to trust and forgive and to move forward from the past. But I know we are going to make it finally. I have no doubt in my mind. I am already planning a trip to Hawaii for the two of us, and we have been talking about renewing our vows before God and our new preacher and family. Its amazing how much your life can turn around once you allow God into your heart.
Honesty, sincerity, tenderness and trust. A little less time for the rest of the world, And more for the two of us. Kisses each mornin, I love yous at night, Just like it used to be.
