I have been lurking in the shadows reading and absorbing others posts for a while now. I stopped writing because I didnt feel I was getting the right help here. I felt like I was constantly being attacked. I finaly woke up when I started noticing my W was talking to another man. She and I had it out on Monday night. I finally talked to her about my affair and admitted to her that I had had an PA with other woman. Thats such a catch 22 there because it took me having an affair for her to stop having hers and for to realize what she had at home. We finally discuss her affairs and mine. It will take some time for me to convince my W that I only have eyes for her again. We stayed up most of the night hashing things out and finally around 8 am we asked God to help us and it was like a gun shot went off all the sudden the love that we had for one another just came pouring out of us. We spent the day together looking for a new place to live since our lease in our apartment is up at the end of the month. I know we have a long road ahead of us learning to trust and forgive and to move forward from the past. But I know we are going to make it finally. I have no doubt in my mind. I am already planning a trip to Hawaii for the two of us, and we have been talking about renewing our vows before God and our new preacher and family. Its amazing how much your life can turn around once you allow God into your heart.
Honesty, sincerity, tenderness and trust. A little less time for the rest of the world, And more for the two of us. Kisses each mornin, I love yous at night, Just like it used to be.
Kevin... its great to know about your M...!!... can you tell me something, just trying to understand my h behavior... ¿Why you had a PA?... Why you think you need your W to have and A to value and realize what you can loose??
I had a PA after years of my W having affairs off and on. I had one when I gave up on my marriage and gave into temptation. I had one because I was tired of feeling alone in my M. It took me moving on for her to realize that I wouldnt just wait forever.
Honesty, sincerity, tenderness and trust. A little less time for the rest of the world, And more for the two of us. Kisses each mornin, I love yous at night, Just like it used to be.
This all started around 3 years ago. But I gave up on my M at the end of December. I had my affair on New Years Eve. It took 3 long months of her changing for me to realize the woman she was changing into. A woman that I wanted again.. Do a search and you can find someof my other links and you can see how hard I tried..
Honesty, sincerity, tenderness and trust. A little less time for the rest of the world, And more for the two of us. Kisses each mornin, I love yous at night, Just like it used to be.
I would love to be able to share something here as well. Kevin practiced what he learned here for 3 long years, I saw the change but was blinded by my own selfishness. My wake up call was the night of the PA, I realized I didn't want to live like this anymore. I was allowed to feel the pain I had put him through for so long. I needed to feel it to realize I needed to change. I needed to fix me, the problem was me all along. I did the complete 180 and I had to begin showing my husband love even when I didn't feel love in return. Many days, God carried me, I could have never made it without my faith.
What a beautiful new beginning we've been given. I will never take my H for granted again. You can read some of my posts under Broken2late and confusedWAW. I'm so ashamed when I look back at the state of selfishness I was in but thankful for where I am today.
Thank you... Life is finaly good after so many years...
Honesty, sincerity, tenderness and trust. A little less time for the rest of the world, And more for the two of us. Kisses each mornin, I love yous at night, Just like it used to be.
