Lillie, I think that he used to feel this way. I'm sure there are traces of it lurking about his head.
I do think, though, that he is largely past these issues. My H is VERY open about what he feels and gives me brutally honest answers. If there were any worries or doubts or hidden beliefs, I do think he would have told me about it.
You know what I think? I think it is a habit. He has gotten into the HABIT of me-going-to-him. He is in the habit of keeping his desire well hidden.
He told me this past weekend, during the Sweets Discussion, that there are lots of times he feels strong desire for me--yes, Honeypot, desire that matches the need for candy--but does nothing with it. I asked why and he said that he feels worse and more anxiety at the thought of DOING something than he does at the thought of just leaving me hanging. This sounds mean but it wasn't intended in that spirit at all. I took it as he intended it to be--that he was telling me that his anxiety rockets when faced with the prospect of demonstrating the desire that he does (sometimes) feel. So he chooses the easy route..does nothing, and hopes that I 'know' that the desire is there.
Really, Lil, I don't think the religious stuff bothers him anymore. I do think you are right in that the idea of being HORNY and HUNGRY and I GOTTA HAVE HER makes him feel icky inside. He would never blame this on God, though, or try to find theological reasons why this is an acceptable way to feel. He would likely chalk it up to old habits and his earliest learnings about sex, which most definitely would have been negative.
