Choc, Oh yes, I fully understand that my thinking is going to get me nowhere...I was just posting it in the interest of saying, Hey I still have issues to work through..
And Jenny was right--I don't think I have a right to expect EVERY man to fall at my feet with lust, only my own man. I try and try to look at it as a gift, but I still end up thinking What the hell is the problem here?? H says I'm being vain but I don't think that's it. I have felt like this even during times when I wasn't physically attractive. Even now, I'm not at my physical best, and I still think that he should be turned on by me. Should should should, right.
The whole deal is complicated by the fact that I do get lots of male attention so my mind inevitably goes back to the What the hell is the problem thinking.
Oh and JJ, he DID say, many many times, How could I compare YOU to sweets..there is no contest. Etc etc.
I basically forced his hand. I forced him to answer the question, knowing that it would be a hurtful answer. Smack smack to me.
I guess I am just sick of him maintaining that his desire level is right up there with mine and that we are sooo similar. You know what. We're not. I could never think of a way to illustrate the kind and strength of desire I was talking about until I stumbled on the Lenten comparison.
