That is the path I've been trying to take, the kind and gentle one, but he p*ssed me off last night with his flirty email that turned out to be a Get her off my back gesture. That threw me for a loop and I felt foolish. So he starts in on me...saying he DOES desire me, etc etc, and I felt the need to clarify "desire" for him. Desire is when you want something and think about it and go after it, if you have the opportunity. It is not an intellectual feeling that you think something is nice..and pleasing..but No thanks not right now. He does not have sexual desire for me. He has desire for sweets. I don't know why but I need to make this distinction with him. I need to hear him say, I don't desire you all that much but I love you and so I make this a priority anyway. I'm tired of him arguing with me that he does desire me when it's clear he doesn't. I just want truth....even if it hurts me. Why! I don't know!!!
You are right, I'm pressing him. I need to stop, I've done this before with the same crappy results.
Fcuking sweets. I feel like throwing every gosh damned brownie and cookie in the trash. I never buy it, he went on a spree last week at the grocery store and loaded up. Must have been horny.
Bitterpot
P.S. I will read your message again later and I promise I will let the words sink in.
