Weird things going on here. I just emailed H a pretty sassy email, and he responded wonderfully!
NOPkins, if I have to tell you you're right one more time, I will scream! I should have communicated to him my desire and specifically what that meant. Communicate communicate communicate. Why can't I learn that.
He told me last night, as I was venting that my Naked Snuggling never led to anything, that he had no idea I was TRYING to get it to lead to something. I said, H if I have to tell ya every time "this is snuggling" or "this is seduction", it will sortof lessen the experience for me...
but the point he was making hit home, nonetheless. We do not communicate well with each other. In fact, his whole family seems to have problems with communication (and this is not a slam, merely an observation). It is comical to watch them trying to talk to each other, and everyone is busy misunderstanding and a 4 minute story turns into a 20 minute ordeal because none of them can follow what the other is saying. Anyway, I think I should have communicated my thoughts to him long ago instead of ASSuming that he thought one thing and I know him inside and out. I could be wrong and misunderstanding him AGAIN, but I need to get the ball rolling with communication. NOP, I did try to ask the colorful balls question yesterday but he said it was not the issue, as he wasn't thinking sex--or intentionally trying to avoid it--if I don't tell him upfront what my "snuggling" intentions are. How bizarre, I think. He really does have drive problems, I'm telling you this is not all relational. At any rate, though, it was a worthwhile question. I also asked him where his 'hunger' for me was at: 1 being "I don't think about sex, hardly ever" and 10 being "I can't stop thinking about it and do so at least once an hour". He replied that he was at a 9 and 3/4 but he was being silly so I have no idea of where he is really at. I pressed for a real answer and all he'd say is that he thinks about it a lot and wants me to be healthy.
I wish I didn't have to drag this info out of him like a dentist extracting a rotten molar. It was nice to hear, even if I had to force it. How patethic am I!
Anyway, I feel positive about the vibe that is currently going on and I am ready to communicate in a loving way. I did a pretty good job of checking my anger at the door yesterday but every once in a while it zinged right outta me.
