I'm not cleared for takeoff, that's why I'm getting so antsy and irritated.

I'm trying to get him interested in SOMETHING, anything, and he's not biting. It doesn't matter that it's been weeks for him and that I've been looking particularly fetching lately (LOL), it just....doesn't...matter.

He sorta misses me when we can't ML. Kindof.
Maybe, if it's not too late.

I want him--and have asked him several times--to still treat me as his lover even if we can't ML. Touch me intimately (back rubs, caresses, etc), flirt with me, kiss me, tell me I look nice, etc.
What he does instead is to act as if I am not a woman..he doesn't touch me, he does hug and peck me so I'll give him his props there, he doesn't compliment me, he won't snuggle with me in bed.

I gotta have something.

He can certainly still treat me as his wife, even if we can't ML.

Methinks he is enjoying his vacation too darn much.

I don't know, Choc.

He really has been trying to show his desire lately. He makes comments now and then, I guess. I think I just got my tailfeathers in a wad because I TRIED to seduce him (though I can't think of many other times when it has been successful) and it failed many many night in a row and I began to have bad thoughts about him: IS he a man? What is going on here? Etc.

But I managed to get hold of these thoughts and rise above them, I really did.

Then I go and have a niiiiiice dream in which there was a man who DID want me. Who was willing to show it and not act as if I am a nightly nuisance to him. And I woke up pissy and blindsided him.

I'm trying to work through this with him today but he keeps saying, But I DO desire you!! and I'm supposed to take him at his word and say, Oh of course what was I thinking.

I'm sorry; it is just NOT enough that he desires me on some tiny level in the bottom of his heart, but refuses to show it or demonstrate it. I need more. I have asked for more. I am not receiving more.

Dang, today is a day in which I could realllllllly use some patience. I haven't been this worked up since I was preg.

Say a prayer for me that I manage to chill out a little.