Well, I've been getting irritated because I'm trying to start something sexually, see, and he's ignoring me and telling me to get off him. Yes, in those words. Usually with a followup of "I'm hot" or "I'm tired". In his defense, he thinks since I am still ill that there will be no sex and therefore I couldn't possibly be trying to get something GOING so he's confused as to what I'm doing.
I suppose the pissiness on my part is coming into play because I think, Good GRIEF what do I have to do to seduce this guy?!
I can--and should have--just said, Yo do you want to fool around, but after 2 weeks of celibacy I was thinking that my usual non-subtle ways would turn him on and we could take it from there. Think spread legs, hanging on him, touching him, etc. I'm doing everything but outright saying, Hey I am trying to turn you on here.
Yes, I am gratefully taking the whacks. I have no right to try and seduce him and then get ticked that he doesn't respond. I WANT to do this, and can't seem to get this idea out of my head that I should be able to do these non-subtle gestures and get a reaction. I should not have to, after weeks of celibacy, ASK for him to respond to me or SAY that I want him--that would lessen the experience for me to such an extent that I don't know if I'd still want it. If we were having regular sex, I would have NO problem stating that I wanted him. For some reason I have it in my mind that after this long of a time, he should be drooling over me and unable to contain himself and I shouldn't have to spell it out for him, like some sort of Remedial Seduction Class. Aren't I stubborn and awful!!
NOP, at this point, two hands would work fine for me. He is not willing to even "go there" with sexual thoughts and that is sort of the first step in the process.
Choc and Lassie, I guess I just want him to respond to me when I am obviously trying to seduce him. I get sick of him ignoring me because it's not a good time for him. It's never really a good time for him, except when he's driving to work and I'm not with him--or so he says.
Man, I am really whiny today. Believe me, folks, I am attempting to get this out of me and settle my thoughts so that I don't pull any more out-of-place anger and sexually frustrated p*ssiness with him.
