Just wanted you to know I hope everything goes well with your surgery. Your situation has been making me think about the question someone brought up about how would a HDW deal with it if her H was paralyzed or otherwise physically unavailable. I answered that I would be okay with it as long as I knew he still had an appreciation for sexuality. To be graphic, I would rather MB in front of a paralyzed man who really wants to experience my pleasure than have sex with a fully functional H who is only doing it out of a sense of duty. I guess my point is it seems to me that you are every bit as HD as you ever were even though you don't actually want to have sexual intercourse probably in part due to hormones but also probably due to the fact that you are just accustomed to thinking of yourself as a sex-loving person kind of like Beethoven was still a music-lover even after he went deaf.
"Tell me, what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?" - Mary Oliver
