Thank you so much for checking, S. I'm not doing well at all. NOT talking about anything of consequence - especially since that's one of his complaints about me and I am so eager now to open up and work and change (even going to therapy which I never in a million years thought I would) is making me physically sick. So...I did a major DB boo-boo and asked him yesterday if we could plan to talk on Saturday. He very pleasantly said sure, didn't ask about what or anything. My MIL said that if I get to Saturday and I don't feel ready to talk about anything, or I'm not really ready to hear just how over me he is or how not over OW he is, I should just say that knowing how busy he is I just wanted to reserve some time for us to spend together and see how he's doing. But part of me is worried about how much sicker I might get being in limbo like this....
I have been walking and enjoying the sunshine - but got sick a couple of days ago so not as much as I wish. Am being totally unproductive at work and probably on my way to being fired...at a point at which I was looking forward to slowing down my career and finally having him take the lead on supporting us afer so many years - guess not - what a cliche! Wife puts H through school and then gets dumped for younger model when H reaches career goals - geez!
Send me some energy and focus this way, will you? Thanks for the support -
