Yeah, it has gone far better than I could have predicted. I dedicated myself to loving her even if I got hurt in the end. No guts no glory, right? That fear of failure had kept me from giving of myself 100%. My W really needs to "feel" loved and I think that is why she has responded so positively to me lately. My LF is actually having a very positive impact on things believe it or not. I started reacting to my W the way I react to LF. No resentment, no bitterness, no bad history, etc. I could never get over the past but this new attitude has helped.
I am trying to not "look" for deceit. Assuming the best and giving her the benfit of the doubt is so much more fun than looking for trouble. If she chooses to violate my trust I can't stop her anyway. That is her choice and then I have my own to make. Not looking for deceit but if it is slapping me in the face I won't ignore it either. You can be trusting without being a fool. Two weeks 'til tax season is over and we are going to send the kids away for that whole weekend. We usually take a little getaway but we have a great bed and hot tub at home. Why the hell pay for something we have at home? I think we will talk about meta-physics and the big bang theory all weekend. Yeah, right Have a great weekend all, TBONE
