As you see, I am pretty entrenched in the program here. For a very long time, I have ignored and put on a shelf the problems in my marriage, distracting myself and just living in a general state of dissatisfaction. Maybe I was thinking that one day I would just escape all this and just move on with my life.
I'm at a different place now. There are times I get discouraged, frustrated and want to escape, but I am feeling a sense of pride that I am working through my problems and becoming a better person. I'm facing up to the damage and rehabilitating the marriage. Using an analogy ( where are you, JJ?), it's like being in an accident and having to relearn how to walk...you may never have the natural grace you once had, but once you get past the anger you start to appreciate each new step.
I am becoming a calmer and happier person. I was at my son's school yesterday and a mother there commented that I must be on drugs...I felt impervious to the sea of complaints around me. My perspective is changing...I am finding that this program is helping me " do the right thing" in several aspects of my life, rather than just go by my feelings.
Doglover, in answer to your question, I am doing the Marriage Breakthrough with H ( to clue him in on what I'm about these days)and Lostgal, I am going to do the 2005 KLA group here on the BB for myself.
H and I watched a little more of the DVD last nite...it really is a nice " together" thing to do...one point Michele made was that marriage is like a seesaw, the more you do in one area the less your spouse will do there. At times I will need to take a break in leading the way with the relationship improvement stuff...pull back and see where he is at. Right now I need to do this not just for the marriage, but for me. I have been a pro at distracting myself from myself.
