Quote: I just can't bear this pain and I'm sitting here in tears. Sometimes I think I'd be better off being single and childless.
Jo, I can understand your feelings some and think it is somewhat normal for you to feel that way for the monent. I think many people feel like that sometimes. I am sorry you feel this way now. {{{{{Jo}}}}}
I read your post and see that some of the old deamons still exist. Loss of a baby, your old love nest and someone else there where you should be. Must hurt I imagine.
Quote: Then DD1 says 'Mummy, why don't you ever come to our house?'
I think guys can live in the old house or sleep on the their old bed with a different woman and not feel so bad. If the guy sleeps on the womans bed and thinks about her former H and the kids they made on that bed, well that might be a problem to some guys.
I think it is different for women. I think most women would feel the ghost of the former W in the old house or bed too, and really feel uncomfortable and not totally free. I think woman feel the OW in the house more than the man would if the situation were reversed. Most guys are in the house or bed with the physical woman that is standing before them. The ghost of the former woman is only very dim. I think women see the glaring ghost of the OW at times like these.
Quote: I have too much baggage and I feel really ugly and horrible and not remotely feminine.
Well Jo, I guess we are all here because of some baggage. Let's just you have lots of company. This too will pass. I know some days I am up and the next day down and not much has changed.
I have to go on a service call. Hope someone else chimes in to listen, or help you through this cloudy time.
