I write my next installment, earlier than expected.
I was listening to music when there was a knock at the door. It's quite late here so I was a bit nervous.
Went to the door to find my H standing there!
I was so shocked I just said 'Oh.'
He doesn't call round unannounced, he always phones first. He just turned up. He said it was because he 'wanted to surprise me' and he was worried about the 'I don't know if I can be faithful' remark.
I was totally caught off guard. I intended to wear combat pants next time he saw me and instead I was wearing that celtic dress with the lace up front that he likes.
I made him a cup of tea and asked him where his other women were tonight (dig about the faithful remark) - he laughed nervously and told me I am the Thursday one, and then said 'that's a joke darling' (I knew it was a joke).
He talked about this computer job he's done and this �200 fine he has to pay. I told him about my friend and all the weird coincidences about our lives. I told him about some problems with work.
He talked about this spiritual/religious group he goes to and he said 'I'll have to take you with me some time.'
We discussed another one of my friends and how she has similar interests to both of us so we wanted to have a group evening out at some point.
We were talking for ages. I told him about some shelves I have bought so I can have all my work neatly instead of in crates on the floor.
We discussed how awkward it is, running a business from a 2 bed place with a child.
DD4 then heard her father and shouted from her bedroom 'Daddy, I'm asleep!' Both him and me started laughing.
He then said did I still want him after what happened. I made an effort to keep the convo non-sexual. He said he thought I was a bit stand-offish, more so than usual.
I stated I am being careful and not sure whether I should go near him in the circumstances. People's advice on here has been conflicting.
He looked a bit sad and started talking about how he should schedule more time for me and would make an evening to come over and watch a movie with me.
I said it's nearly my birthday soon and for my present I want you to stay overnight and ML with me 3 times in one night like you did on my 26th birthday. He laughed and said what if I can't rise to the ocassion? I said he could
We hugged each other and then I didn't know what else to say. I felt awkward after the R talk we had.
After a bit, he asked me if I still liked him. I thought, damn it, this is making him feel rejected, so I said yes I do and yes I want you too, but you sure as hell aren't going to tell me you can't be faithful and then disappear!
He said okay, I won't - so I ML with him on the spot
We chatted for ages afterwards, then he said about seeing a movie again. He also said he'd fix my printer tomorrow.
When it was time for him to go, I walked to the door as I was, kinda thing, IYKWIM, and he grinned at me and said 'You're just like Lady Chatterley'
And he kissed me and said see you tomorrow.
I just loved that book, and the film - though I reckon Joely Richardson who played Lady Chatterley is probably better looking.
