Thought I'd write this to focus on positives.

As most of you know, I have been feeling a bit down lately so I meditated on it and prayed and asked for some help as I am fed up of being lonely and fed up, and p*ssed of at more than 1 of my friends for letting me down.

This morning I did half the newsletter for work (will finish it after dd4 goes to bed) and some housework.

Then we went out into town in search of those cheap videos I told you about. Just my luck, there are none today. They don't always have them in stock and when they do, you have to get them quick because they're so cheap everybody wants one.

I was stood there thinking that is murphy's law that they haven't got any and why is my life like this etc? Then this woman I used to know from ages ago came up to me and told me she loved my jacket (hand knitted, fair trade from India) and asked how me and dd4 were and what happened at court.
She was at these religious meetings I used to go to but then I stopped going after I lost custody because I was so angry at God I didn't want to know.
Anyhow, after a while I hadn't been for so long that I felt embarrassed to turn up again.
She was at DD4's child blessing and I felt guilty that I just cut everyone off.

We stood talking about my H and the sitch and she told me she thought I was a really strong woman to go through that and still be standing and that she sees me and dd4 walking past her house regularly and thinks I am amazing to be looking after the 2 of us alone the way I do.

I laughed off her compliments, I felt a bit self-conscious.
Then she started praying for me in the middle of the supermarket and I thought I bet people think we are completely crazy, praying in the canned food aisle amongst the Branston pickle!

After that she confided in me that she is also extremely lonely - she comes from France and her English isn't very good and she lacks confidence so she doesn't know many people, and she invited me and dd4 over for dinner tomorrow night!

I don't often get invited out to dinner on the spot! My prayer about being fed up of my life obviously worked.
As I said before, God only takes about 2 days to process applications

It's only a small thing but it helps to keep me in a good mood and hopefully I will be better when H visits on Saturday.

I've also got the phone number for a nursery school and I've decided to take the plunge and book her into that, rather than waiting around till H agrees for me to go to the home ed meetings!

Jo.