No I don't feel cheap following sex, I feel happy and generally can't stop thinking about him for 24 hours afterwards, can't stop smiling, can't concentrate on my work, keep singing etc..bit of a hopeless female, really
It makes me feel more confident in the R because I think physical touch is my LL and I only get down when he's late, dossn't call or I haven't seen him for several days.
I think sex has a similar effect on him as right before he said ILY he launched into this impassioned speech about how I always do it to him (make him want me) and how I'm so good at it and he can't get enough of me etc, plus some other things too explicit to write on here which is why I didn't post it the first time and then his speech ended with ILY in a really sort of passionate way - so I think he feels some of what I feel in a male way.
Hence I find it difficult to be completely anti about sex.
He started being nice to me a few months before D, then said 'happy annivrsary' on our 9th wedding anniversary which was 5 days before D. He pursued me A LOT in the last two weeks of December (texting me 5 or 6 times daily, phoning up, asking me what I'm doing, nipping round for coffee, telling me what he's doing in life, in 2 hour convos etc). Then we accidently slept together on 30th Dec and I said 'what's going on?' so then he told me wanted to 'take it slowly' and work on our R. He told me he was moving house probably late this year so I said if all went well I would go with him, otherwise we would cut our losses. He agreed.
So far we have been working on the R slowly, but I get upset ocassionally if I think it's too slow, IYKWIM.
