Well, I get conflicting messages on sex, both from myself and others. On the one hand sex is supposed to make a man feel closer to a woman and all the men on here in the sex drives forums are all raving about how women are LD so they want to have an affair, so I think to myself I must be right to sleep with H.
Then of course, it probably reassures him too much so he's starting to take liberties (he used to call more in the beginning to say if he'd be late etc) and I am on this rollercoaster of total joy followed by being upset.
Also, just recently he did tell me he loves me for the first time in 3 years so I think to myself do I really put a stop to it all now?
When it happened the first two ocassions it was spontaneous and I was a bit shocked as we were just D but after that it just carried on. I don't make the first move but he can tell I like it so I don't know if it is truly all his 'whim' - but certainly he's controlling the rest of the R which I hate.
In tears again this evening when I am further along than a lot of you. Everyone must think I am selfish...
