Jo asked -------- Is it me or him? -------- It's called over load Jo. Too much turmoil and not enough resources plus the added weight of being disapointed H and DDs did not arrive as you expected, fear of past villians returning, being sick, and (I cant say this as an expert) female hormones. So maybe it's not you or him. Just too many of life's ups and downs too close together.
About your H geting a child care provider and him going out, I can see where that might make you envious. Maybe you need to do a little of this yourself. I think I read you were doing some of what is called "getting a life" (GAL).
About you feeling like a hotel servant, can the older girls take care of some of the "getting drink" with something like a snack and drink box (soda crackers, peanutbutter, powdered drink mix) you put together in one place and they do the getting and fixing.
I know I have trouble with the ups and downs. I suspect you are experiencing those same feelings. I don't know the best British experssion that a favorite aunt would use to her favorite niece or a brother to his special sister, I would use it if I knew. Since I don't, the first thing that comes to my mind is "cheers". There is a better day coming.
Jo, I have to install W's new dish washer now so have to go. I did the clothes dryer/tumble dryer on tuesday. I will post more after I have the diswasher and other week end chores done.
