So W calls late tonight, S^ still up he talks as he is falling asleep, hands me the phone because W wants to talk to me. She asks if I could cover her on Sunday so she can go away for the day to do an race. Now two weeks ago w said she did not want to do these kind of events because the took her away from her kids, Tonight she was trail running, where the guy she went after just after we split, would be. THE ****. Sorry to vent.
So after seeing him tonight she wants me to cover on her weekend, she does add she is giving me first choice to watch them because two of her friends have said they will watch them. So she does this event, with this OM, and makes me feel guilty if I do not drop my plans to watch them. When I am with the kids I am with the kids, no work, just with the kids, they help me clean the house, whatever I have to do they come along and we have fun. On the weekend I am not with the kids I plan activities to stay very busy, 3-4 hour bhkie rides, long run, gym. Things I cannot/will not do when I am with the kids.
Am I wrong to feel pressured to look after the kids. My work is very busy, lots of pressure and stress,( I sell appliances to large projects, very tight deadlines, with unexpected suprises) and on top of that I have to pay her a lot of money per month. I value my own time and resent the guilt hse has added. Please do not get me wrong I love my kids and would rather be a family than anything else. But I do not want to help my WAW date. Whether she is or not, she says not, but when do you start and stop beliving?
All I would be doing is relaying on Sunday. I did notice that I become agitated if I not de-stress myself.
If I was to hang with the kids on Sunday, I would be thinking about her, and the fun she is having without me.
I love my kids, I miss her but I can not show any weekness.
Do I say no and she send the kids to someone else to watch?
