Hang in there. Work on you. Focus on you. You are right, you have to love yourself. Make that your goal. Each day, do one thing for Russ. Something that would make you happy and feel good. If you begin to do that, you will begin to be happier.
Try not to think abou WAW. I know it is hard. When I detached Russ, and GAL, I found I did not think about H and ow as much. It was also easier to push thoughts out. I put my focus on me and the kids. It really does help. Try it. Take one day at a time.
When you are with WAW "act as if" you are happy, busy, moving on. I know you aren't feeling that way on the inside, but she doesn't have to know that.
