Thanks, Tonight I wehnt back to her to put the kids to bed. I feel so lost when I leave very down, She is just so easy. I asked her once and she said it makes her hurt too. Then I say why do it? There is a solution, we go to conselling together....asking too much.
I have been working on the GAL. Contacted a trainer we both know that is doing Ironman Canada, I offered to train with her and her big group. That did strike Tammy funny...She did not say much, she was suprised??? It is all so confusing. did have a fun day with S6 bike riding. It will be interesting what the weekend holds with this being her weekend. She what to do " Family" activities. I have done suppers, BBQ, group bike rides, trip to the park. What will come up for this weekend.
Tomorrow is another day...lick I have been reading...one must start by loving oneself, then others can love you. I have not been one to love, I must lose this cloud. Only time it lifts is when I am with my kids...
I going to go to bed with my pop and chips. I do have a run in the am, bike after lunch, Supper with the kids I will p/u at the day care. I just want to see some kind of a sign that I should not give up. Goodnight Rusty
