I know I've said it before, but I truly appreciate input from women, as I often get caught up in the gender difference stuff. Sometimes guys just can't catch those sort of patterns.
Lost, I will do some thought-stopping and not let my mind wander.
Had S5 over yesterday. W had asked for me to have him overnight, so I did so. Lots of fun, ate supper at a sandwich shop cause we were out doing chores, stopped off at a library and we took the time to read 3-4 books there before leaving with a small stack plus some cartoon videos, did some grocery shopping then came 'home.' S5 is so hungry for my attention, it makes my heart ache. He began asking me if he could stay 3 nights, then "how about 2?" I'm sick thinking about how he might be turning this all into a rejection of him by me. I reassured him as best I could that I loved him and would spend as much time with him as I could. I noted that I knew this was hard on him and it made me sad to think he is hurting.
S5 brought up his 'baby brother' again. I just said that I knew he was a very loving boy and would make an excellent big brother. He noted that he told W this and I couldn't resist asking, "What did she say?" His response: "Maybe" Hmmmm. I know, I know (Gabriel thought-stops! )
Had severe thunderstorms last night that woke me up and I tossed and turned, started to think about my sitch, and then any chance of sleep went out the window. S5 came to me a bit scared, tossed and turned himself like a grizzly cub, and I escaped to the couch eventually. Caught another 2 hrs of sleep eventually. It was nice to wake up and share breakfast with him.
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