Thanks Martha and Ioavva,

It did surprise me that W had a drawing on her hand - it struck me as childlike or adolescent as well. Yet, W has had that flavor in the past. When I knew her as a friend, she once went thru a period in time when she would run around and kiss strange men smack on the lips then run away. Later, when we started to date and had our 'history' review of past Rs, W denied s.promiscuity and said she just needed some physical connection, that she was distressed and was starving for affection at the time. My other thought was that maybe this was triggered by some sort of therapy/self-love work? To be honest, her expressiveness and ability to be less mature at times was actually attractive a bit, as I don't tend to be drawn toward stuffy types.

I was very close to asking if she wanted me to stay and talk last night, but didn't - working on distancing still. Seems like just after her period is the best timing for these opportunities. Maybe she is in the mood, or is just reconsidering us? It feels early to me, but is unclear.

Ioavva, I wondered about her trying to get a response out of me. She seems to deflate any chance at mystery by telling me if it is a female friend calling etc..., and has never been a liar. But who knows.

I appreciate the idea that S5 just wants us to be happy. That would be just like him. He also is very focused on having a little brother for some reason. Maybe he figures if W won't have one, another woman might! (not on my horizon of possibilities)

Gabriel


God heals the broken-hearted (Psalm 147:3)

Me: 44
W: 40
Separated 8/2011

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