Gabriel- Being one that pushes for positive explanation or trying to win is something that working on yourself will help with.
W is not going to give you all the positives right now that you want. Do things that make yourself happy and proud and that alone will make you feel a whole lot better.
It is a substitute for what you desire but that will have to do for now. Keep working on yourself.
I hope that you are feeling better. Take some time this weekend to rest a bit if possible
