The rollercoaster ride does have its ups and downs. W is definitely a WAS - very emotional, self-focused, and lashes out at the drop of a hat.

She promised to sign her rights/responsibility to house/mortgage away in return for half of the house equity on Friday, but has stalled. Told me today when I picked up S5 to watch in the morning (big favor that I paid her by taking 5 hrs off work to do so, but she won't see it as such), and W noted that she'd go to drop off the paperwork. When I went to drop off S5 at her office, she was in a "meeting" that would be finished "soon" and she tried to hand me the paperwork to drive to the realtors. I refused, noting that I was booked this afternoon, and that the bank had given me 7 days to get my paperwork in, which ends with business hours today. She needs to drive her a$$ across town and deliver them herself, as they must be notarized there. I am so frustrated with her - all these control manuervers and little appreciation.

I need to get back to a high level of GAl work - have been slacking a bit due to a high work volume (good for finances, but not for overall balance).

I feel for S5, as she's obviously giving him short shrift, asking him immediately in huff to color in a corner while her "meeting" (another perfectionistic effort with a task that she'll spend several more hours on, attending to what others think).

He and I did some laundry at the laundromat, coloring and talking together while there, then on to get him a shorts and tshirt outfit (W had dressed him in too hot of clothes), then on to a playground for a picnic lunch. I really worry what this is doing to his self-concept, and hope that he feels valued and loved. I'm really torn up about him, and am having a hard time concentrating now that I'm back at work. Probably should be angry, upset about how I'm being treated to. Scary, but I do believe this treatment is not too far from how she was in the latter half of our marriage. That hurts to admit.

Gabriel


God heals the broken-hearted (Psalm 147:3)

Me: 44
W: 40
Separated 8/2011

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