Your last few days sound exhausting! Don't be displeased with yourself for too long.....you realize that you weren't at your DBing best over the last little bit and you know what you need to do to turn things around again.
I can't say I think looking through the box was a great idea but then again, I don't know if I could've resisted this myself. Cards and different, more expensive types of gifts....evidence of a life that you were not a part of. That's horrible, dreadful stuff. Perhaps what can be an encouragement in this case is that having seen the types of things that passed between H and OW, you gain an insight into another facet of your H's personality. Who's to say that in the new relationship/new marriage that you are forming with him that sexy underwear, and mushy cards can't be a part? At least now you know that he is capable of such things!!
I found your H's comments about losing his eye very interesting. That the person he had been before losing it was gone. It sounds like he still needs an awful lot of validation that whoever he is now is precious to you.
I wish you courage and strength, Midip.
A hug to you, (((Midip)))
~Alanah
"It seems to me that we often, almost sulkily, reject the good that God offers us because, at the moment, we expected some other good."
C.S. Lewis
