Sherry, this is the time to be strong for YOU! I know to well the bitter feelings and they can take over sometimes but bitterness and resentment only creates a bitter and resentful person...that is not you, it is not healthy for you. Regardless of what you decide to do with your R and your H work on letting go of all of that. I know I feel much better about myself when I do.
Quote: Sometimes I just want to scream at him I don't want to be your buddy but your wife, treat me like one.
In my opinion if you don't have a friendship you don't have anything to build on...try to be his friend. You might actually LIKE each other again.
Sorry you're having a rough time right now, hopefully the rollercoaster will start the upward motion soon.