I am holding out until summer. I have already told him I will not do this then. I can't. I know that is not good DBing. But, I have to do what is best for me.
I am trying to prepare myself for the possibility of being alone. I think he may feel that. I really don't know for sure. I do know that I pull back a little each day. I also realize I may not feel the same way when/if he comes and tells me it is finally over. I have told him that before (how my feelings for him are changing and how it may be too late if he prolongs this too long).
I guess the major thing holding me here is God and the kids. I really feel like this is what God wants me to do. It has made my walk with him so much stronger. I also want to hang in there as long as I can for the kids. Things are sooo much better right now. He is different. He is better with the kids and with me. I do see things changing. I think I need to wait a little longer. Patience, patience, patience.
