Thanks D and Unsure,

Unsure, you are right. This is just so hard.

I am going to focus on the positive things for now.
H has been giving me little back scratches in bed. He initiated a hug yesterday as I left for work (I said bye and turned to leave). He called today after I had a Dr.'s appt. to check on me.

Little, teeny tiny baby steps.
Sherry