You hit it on the nail, MTN. Since he decided he needed to be home, I want him to work on the M, not continue the R with ow. I guess I figured if he decided to come back home it would be with no ow, saying how sorry he is, saying he loves me and beginning to work on the M. I am having a hard time coming to grips with the fact that is not happening.
I also know I have to decide what I want. I am just as confused as he is right now. Isn't that just great? He starts this mess and I end up feeling like him.
I am trying to put this in God's hands but am struggling with that. I guess I am doubting again instead of trusting Him. Everytime I decide to trust and tell myself God will work this out ( I have felt that from the beginning), something happens and I doubt it all.
Thanks for listening. I need some of your attitude MTN, that is for sure.
