I gave H an ultimatum. I know that is not good DBing but I had to do it for me.
He left on Monday. Called Tuesday wanting to come home. I asked why, he said he felt like home is where he needed to be. I told him that you know what I expect (ending it with ow). He said yes he just didn't know how or if he could do it quickly.
So... here I am. I know when he ends it there will be a grieving time for him.
Today I feel numb. I have been at this for 4 months now and feel drained. This is what I wanted. But, now I am not sure of how much more I can handle. Sometimes, moving on seems like it would be easier than waiting for him to end it and then the grieving and then the rebuilding of our M.
Is this normal????? I am crazy for these feelings????
