He's leaving

[ValerieA]

WHOA!!

Ok....I'm not sure where to begin! There was alot going on this morning, yes?

My head IS definitely spinning! Still, I thank each and every one of you from my heart.

H has been in and out all day so I'm not going to post much right now. Tomorrow I should be able to go more in-depth since he will be working.

One thing, I want to explain what I meant when I wrote "H is here AGAIN". It was more like "H is HERE again" meaning it "appears" as if he wants to remain with me, and that's why I feel this may be my last chance.

H just called and is around the corner. Let me end this by saying I will act as if H has said he wants to make things "right". I will be loving and supportive, but for the sake of not being emotionally crushed again, I will give H LOTS of space. I will try and suggest some activities H and I can do together, but if he turns me down, I will not take it personally anymore. I know he is a very busy man everyday.

PATIENCE -- That is my IMMEDIATE goal for myself right now. I have not been patient enough, and I think I HAVE been waiting for H to say the words, "I do want to work on our M".

I will read DR again tonight (H plans on going to play in a weekly poker tournament). I will rethink my goals and post them.

My H is still home and has not left. This is a GOOD thing, and I need to tell myself that.

I will also start a new thread seeing how this one is close to being filled.

Hmmm....do I remain here? Or should I go to "Piecing"? WAIT. I'll answer that one myself since I'm acting as if. I will move to "Piecing"!

JV