Hi, Sun. Thanks for stopping by.

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WIll the kids be there? If so they might run and greet him before he gets to you, so that might make things awkward. I know when my H comes home, my D runs to him and then I am left standing there as he walks past me with a "Hey"



YES! That's exactly what happens here, too!

I don't know what time H will get here. It all depends on when he leaves AZ. If he leaves tonight, he could be home by morning or early afternoon. If he leaves in the morning, then I wouldn't expect him until well after the kids are in bed, possibly close to midnight, and I might very well be asleep by then.

In the past when H returned from long trips and the kids greeted him first, I always received a "hi" or "hey", too, and that was it. If I wanted a hug or kiss, I had to initiate it myself or even sometimes just ask for it. If the kids were asleep, I usually jumped up as soon as I heard the key turning in the door to greet H when he stepped inside. I always had the biggest smile , a great big hug , and a very nice smooch for him. The only time H ever came to me after getting hugs from the kids was when he returned from Seattle back in late February. I greeted him with a warm smile, and H greeted me with hugs and kisses. That was also when H was "certain" he did not want to lose me and wanted to work on our M.

I'll know I'll be glad to see him, and I'll show it no matter what happens. I don't think I can be as jubilant as I used to be because of the sitch now. I mean back then, I practically jumped on him! But not now. I'd like to get to that point again sometime, but yes, it's just too awkward right now.

I'm just a bundle of nerves . The suspense of not knowing what tomorrow holds is overwhelming. I'll just do my best to hold it together.

Thanks for listening.

Valerie

"I can't change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination." ~ author unknown

"Piecing is not for the faint of heart." ~ sage