Ok, I've been thinking. I've got nothing but time on my hands these days!
The "controlling" issue has really struck a cord in me. I've been looking at the past and trying to see where else H might have perceived me as controlling. I know I mentioned before the activities that H would enjoy, and I still intend to engage in those with him.
I think I've picked up on something else. Pre-bomb, H would often talk about real estate in AZ and TX. Much, much more house for alot less money out there. H had said on numerous occasions, "Let's do it! Let's move. The homes are huge and would cost us over 200K less than what they are here." At first, I was considering it, but as time went on, I kept thinking that we have so many ties here. Family, friends, you name it. I love the house we're in now, and I even told H after we moved in here, after making this house our home, that I could envision us living here for the rest of our lives. I could see all the family get-togethers and even our grandchildren coming to visit us here. After a couple of months, H stopped talking about it and agreed that there was too much here for us to leave behind.
Lately, I've been thinking, "Why not?" This is something that H seemed to really want to do! He has done SOOO MUCH for me and the boys. I've always been so grateful. I NEED and WANT to do for him.
This would be HUGE! A BIG step! This would be me putting H above everything and everyone else.
I'd like to see how things go when H gets back. If all is going well, I'd like to talk to H about possibly taking a trip to AZ and/or TX to check things out. This isn't something I'll bring up right away though. I don't want him to think I'm trying too hard and too soon.
Any thoughts?
Thanks.
Valerie
"I can't change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination." ~ author unknown
