I am sure your H will really appreciate the effort that you made outside the house. I thought that my H would too, but unfortunately he didnt. I did realize that it wasnt really my effort outside that makes him aggitated with me, its just that he feels so unhappy at home that he blames me...But that is a story for another post.
You sound like you are doing well today. There are days that I have crying spells as well. The last few I had I managed to keep from H. DOnt want to be seen as pathetic. So do them if you need to, but not to H.
SInce I have been re-reading DR, this part is still fresh in my mind, so here is my advice to you straight from the book. If you show anxiousness upon H's arrival home, he will sense that and act accordingly. So this is where ACT as If will have to come into play. Act as if you are excited to see him. Give him a big hug and see how the positive attitude unfolds.
