I haven't talked to H since Friday. Saturday was good. I took the boys to the park and then for dinner, we went out for pizza - their all-time favorite!
Yesterday was rather tough. I had quite a few crying spells throughout the day. Not exactly sure why. Maybe it's just stress or the fear of not knowing what's in store for us upon H's arrival. Maybe it's both.
I've been lying in my bed at night and I keep thinking, "Is this what it's going to be like? Will I be the only one in this bed from now on?" I know these are just thoughts and they're not helping anything, but it's hard not to have them when things are shaky and blurred.
I was reading on another post about doing things around the outside of the house. Whether I'm coming or going, I ALWAYS go through the garage. I went out my front door earlier today, and I thought I was looking at the Munsters' house! Nothing but webs with dirt and small dead leaves stuck in every crevice and every corner of the house. I was wondering why there weren't as many solicitors coming by anymore! Normally it's H's job to do that stuff, but seeing how he's away so much, I decided to do it myself. The boys helped out, too. Actually, S9 and S5 helped while the baby supervised and enjoyed the sunshine!
Ok, it's taken me about 45 minutes to get this far! I keep getting interrupted. Aaaahhh - motherhood!
So H just called about 15 minutes ago. I didn't answer like I said I wasn't going to. He left a message telling me that (best friend - who is also a co-worker) will be coming by later to get some equipment out of the garage. He said he hoped I would be there to let him in, and he would call back before (bf) got here. Now, in past messages before hanging up, H would say tell the boys he loves and misses them. Today H said, "Ummm......I miss you guys." I felt like picking up and saying, "I miss you, too, you big stud!"
Well anyway, the baby's napping now so this is my chance to get some things done around the inside of the house! Gotta hurry though! He's like a catnapper!
Thanks for listening.
Valerie
"I can't change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination." ~ author unknown
Normally it's H's job to do that stuff, but seeing how he's away so much, I decided to do it myself. The boys helped out, too. Actually, S9 and S5 helped while the baby supervised and enjoyed the sunshine!
