He's leaving

[ValerieA]

Thanks, Sun.

You're right. The comfort thing is a small sign. I AM too close to see these signs, so thank you, all of you, for always pointing them out to me.

I'm actually rather proud of myself concerning my "wondering". I only THOUGHT about any possibility of H talking to OW for a VERY short time. I didn't stress or obsess about it. Honestly, I believe I am over the fact that there was an OW. The biggest obstacle for me now is getting back the H and the R I had 12 years ago.

I went all day again without calling H. The boys called him after 8pm like always. Instead of hanging up, S5 brought me the phone and said H wanted to talk to me again. I got on the phone and was subjected to one of H's daily tirades about work. I get tired of hearing this day after day, but I just listened like I always do. H ranted and raved for a good 10 minutes, took and released a deep breath, then said, "I just wanted to tell you I was feeling better." We talked for another minute or so. I said I had to go because the baby was fussing in his crib. H said very softly, "I'll talk to you later. Bye."

Well, I thought I was going to have the weekend to myself. The kids were supposed to go to my parents' again (they are SOOO wonderful!!), but they're going to help my stepdad's brother look for an apartment instead. So I'll be GAL with 3 little men this weekend.

As always, thanks.