Hello, everybody.

Thanks, Ohio. You have NO idea how close I was to going to Vegas! I'm still in shock. The top 13 players won a seat to the WSOP, 14th won 5K, 15th won 3K, and 16th won 2K......I placed 18th!!! 18th!!! NO JOKE! There was a total of 619 players in the tourney. I played from 9pm til 3am. Ohhhh man...I am burnt out. I was soooooo close!!!

Sage, I've always felt that H's reactions to me doing anything without him is based on fear, H's insecurity. Back when we were dating, I used to go out with my friends (much more often), and I knew he was always insecure about that. So I stopped going out altogether unless it was with H.

I'm always reassuring him. When the question of other men hitting on me pops up, I am honest about it. Then I reassure H that "hooking up" with someone else is the furthest thing from my mind. I tell him that is NOT what I want. I tell him that if a guy approaches me, he's turned down immediately. I've even lied and said no one hit on me, but H always says in his crabby way, "Hmmmph! I find that very hard to believe."

I don't go out a whole lot. I've only been out with my friends a few times in the past 10 years. Those few times have been in these last couple of months.

Yes, I remember you mentioning about your H's fear of possible "retaliation", and I think my H has that same fear going through his mind. Sometimes I feel like I should stop going out again, but then sometimes I don't. I tell H all the time that he has NOTHING to worry about......The funny thing is my H used to say the same to me before the bomb dropped. But I KNOW that I MEAN it.

Well, when I spoke to H yesterday, he said they only did 10 deals for the whole weekend, and 5 of them were scheduled today for installation. So H might be home by the end of the week. He didn't say.

Ok, seeing that the baby's napping now, I'm going to lay down for a bit. I still can't believe I was up til 3am then had to get up at 7am to get S9 and S5 ready for school. Spring break is next week - YEAH!!! I don't know why I'm rooting for it. The kids will still have me up by 7am!

Thanks for listening.




Valerie

"I can't change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination." ~ author unknown

"Piecing is not for the faint of heart." ~ sage