One small positive this morning. H called last night after I was already asleep and left a message saying, "I know we agreed not to talk while I'm gone, but I just wanted to let you know I'm tired of driving, so here's the number to the motel where I'm staying for the night. You can call me if you need to, or if you just want to, in case my phone dies." I know it was nothing big, but it felt big to me.
What a nice positive message from him!
I (personally, just my two cents) think it would be nice of you to call and let him know that you've been missing him. You could keep it short and sweet -- definitely NO R talks or even a mention of "I know we agreed not to talk...". Just something that says "I really loved getting your message last night. I've been missing you!" End of conversation.
If it felt better to you, you could even try to finagle just leaving a message as opposed to an actual conversation.
No pressure to call if it doesn't feel right...just think it might be a nice way to return the positive.
Sage
Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.