He's leaving

[ValerieA]

Thanks, AussieGirl and Sportster. I needed some uplifting words.

Yes, H is definitely VERY confused and did change his mind about 10+ times last night. Ok now, "part two":

H called just after 11pm to see what I was doing and asked if I needed him to pick anything up. I asked him to get me some more Motrin or Tylenol if he didn't mind. He said no problem. He sounded cheery.

H gets home and goes about like everything is fine, so I go along with it. I took the Tylenol and was falling asleep on the couch while H was playing cards online. I was sleeping, but every now and then, I could hear H talking to me about the hands he was playing. I think it was about 1:30am when H woke me up and said let's go to bed.

I changed into my nightie (his favorite one I might add) then we get into bed. H holds me from behind and begins saying, "I don't know what words I can say to you to make things feel better.....I'm not moving my things out.....I want us to be happy together, or I don't want us to be together at all." Then he repeated the last statement. His tone seemed to be very "matter of fact". H turned on his back. After a minute, I turned and put my arm around his front side. I took this opportunity to initiate kissing then H initiated !

So last night ended on a positive note. This morning, I'm not so sure.

I went to pick up the baby from my parents' house earlier. My stepdad's brother has moved in already, and I can see that my mom is trying to hide her unhappiness about that sitch. When I returned home, to my surprise, H had breakfast made for me! So I'm eating, and I mention to H how miserable my mom is. Then H said, "Oh, you mean like I am?" I'm thinking, "Ok. That does NOT help things. What is going on now?!", but I turned my head away and said nothing more.

Things were pretty quiet after that. I stayed out of his way, and H said nothing to me. H got himself ready while I got the boys dressed. H, S9, and S5 went to H's grandparents' for Easter. The baby (who is doing better BTW) and I are home.

I am beginning to feel just as confused as H. Last night he was miserable and wanted out. Then he wants to stay and we're intimate. This morning, H says he's miserable again.

I have told him not to stay since he's not happy here. I think I've given him every opportunity to go. I'm beginning to feel like H IS staying out of guilt. I could be wrong, but I really don't think so.