Thanks NY, you, along with everyone else on this board have helped me through this.
There were times when I thought I would never get to this point. It is hard to see it in the midst of all the pain. But, for me, turning this over to God has made all the difference. I have peace. I have wanted and strived for it for a long time but I kept giving into my emotions. Now, I can't even explain how I feel or why. I just know it is different and that makes me react differently. I just don't dwell on things anymore either. I am not saying it has all just gone away. But, I can now push thoughts out pretty easily and the more I do this the less they come. And, boy, does that help your PMA.
H just called to let me know what his plans were--another positive--
The kids are gone until Saturday!!I love them but it is nice to have a break. I won't know what to do with myself tomorrow morning when I only have myself to take care of!!!
