I got on yesterday to post then the phone rang, then H came in. Never got back on.
I had a good Mother's day. My mom sent me flowers at work on Friday. My inlaws sent a card with a gift card inside to buy some clothes because of all the weight I lost. H actually took the kids shopping on Saturday and let them help pick something out, a first. He came to church, then we went out to lunch. H did his thing the rest of the day (played on computer, played drums).
Last week had its ups and downs. H went to our pastor for counseling on Thursday. He didn't tell me about it. Really didn't expect him to, though. I think they are working on the whole anger issue. I am not even sure if he brougt up the A thing or not. He did volunteer that he goes again this Wednesday. That is good.
H has been moody, quick to anger, a grump. I am hoping that is because he is ending it with ow and there contact is lessening. I know I can't hope. Last week he did say he was depressed.
My PMA is good.
Quote: Sherry, HAVE you forgiven him? If so, have you SAID it to him? If not, maybe he needs to HEAR it
Yes, I have told him, more than once.
Quote: How has your PMA been around H lately? I know you've posted that your PMA has been good and you're really enjoying the kids, but what about H? Have you been enjoying him as well?
I ask because I know that my PMA had disappeared in H's presence. I was trying to show it, but it can be extremely difficult when I'm going through those "numb" feelings.
I think with my almost non-existent PMA around H, and H noticing, he very well could be thinking that I haven't forgiven him.
JV, I think you are right about my PMA. It is there for the kids but not always for H. I don't always enjoy my H. That has been hard. I think sometimes I have detached too much. I just go about my business and don't worry about him. I will try to work on that.
H has still been coming home early. He is making an effort to hug and kiss me goodbye in the mornings.
