I don't think H has had much if any contact with ow since returning home on Tues.
But, tomorrow spring break is over and we head back to work and I believe he will resume talking to ow.
I have been struggling with feelings I haven't had in a loong time. I had gotten to the point where I wasn't obsessed with H and ow. It is in my head all the time. I am hoping going back to work will help with that. Why do I seem to be going backwards here?????
I look back on the last 4 days and think why didn't I make those the best days so when he did return to work it would be good thoughts about us. No, the last several days have been h---. I have had a rollercoaster of emotions and not a lot of control. You know what they say about hindsight.
I had bags packed on Saturday and was ready to leave on several ocassions. H was actually telling me not to go, using the kids to make me feel guilty. But, he can't end it with ow quickly and won't tell me how long it will take. He says he wants to end it mutually. I am having a hard time with that. He won't answer any questions about what his contact with ow will be now that he has chosen to come home. My thoughts on Saturday were we needed to be separated longer than one night. He came home on Tuesday sounding sorry, saying he needed to stop being a coward (he used a different word that I won't use here on the baord). I haven't seen too much of that man since. I am afraid of ending right back up where I was.
