I remember the feeling vividly and of standing outside while the removal men came to take away half of my furniture.
I was so hysterical my MIL took me to the supermarket for a cup of tea to calm down.
But believe me, as painful as this is, he will not want you as long as you are depressed and not wanting to live without him.
He wants you to love him because you want him, not because you NEED him. There's a difference.
He wants you to be the confident and sexy person he fell in love with, and people who want to kill themselves aren't sexy, they're dependent. Believe me, I was suicidal so I know. It is the reason I'm divorced and the reason why it took so long to reconcile anything with my H.
As soon as I genuinely started living for myself and not NEEDING him, he found he needed me and he likes the new me without depression.
I know it doesn't help much at this time, but a PMA really does make a difference to the outcome.
