Although I cannot fully appreciate what you are saying at the moment because I am crying and feeling downright awful, I can see the possibilities your described. It isn't like we hate each other. It is just a little uncomfortable. I have spent almost my entire adult life with this man and to go from what I thought was bliss to this is just about more than I can take. Some days are better than others. Some days I really believe I could make it through even if he didn't come home. But then there are days like today when I feel it would be easier if I walked outside and got hit by a bus. But in spite of all this wallowing in self-pity, I will get through it. Thanks again, M
