Church was very happy and sad at the same time today. I'm not the best of Christians, but I did get to thinking as I sat through this awesome service that my relationship with God is just like that with my wife, only the exact opposite. He's the one that loves me and I'm the one saying "I don't know you well enough to love you...or ILYBINILWY" If he wasn't God I'm sure I would be a frustration to him. Of course he's patient. He lets me have my whole life to get my head out of my butt and come to him the way he wants. I need that kind of patience. Yes, I had two "don't calls". But I came out of church happy and what I wanted to do was tell her and my S-kids to have a happy Easter. So I left a message on her phone. I have undefined emotions running through me. I really can't tell if I'm happy or sad, but I feel like crying.
Today isn't a day for me to worry about the consequences of anything in my relationship. It was a day I was thankful for the gift God gave me on this day. So it was a day I wish that for my wife. So there
Anyway, country music today has been torturing me. It seems the radio just keeps having applicable songs. I'll share the lyrics of two. I think most here can relate.
First One-Brooks and Dunn. Getting better all the time
I don't stop breathing every time the phone rings My heart don't race when someones at my door I've almost given up thinkin' your ever gonna call I don't believe in magic anymore.
I just don't lie awake at night Asking God would get you off my mind It's getting better all the time It's getting better all the time.
And Blake Shelton's Goodbye time
It's your life - you say you need a change Don't all the dreams we've seen come true mean anything You say it's different now and you keep staring at the door How can you walk away don't I matter anymore
If being free's worth what you leave behind And if it's too late for love to change your mind Then it's goodbye time
If we had known our love would come to this We could have saved our hearts the hurt of wasted years Well it's been fun - what else can I say If the feeling's gone words won't stop you anyway
If being free's worth what you leave behind And if it's too late for love to change your mind Then it's goodbye time
Well I better go get a life. Hope you all had a nice Easter.
In the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years. Abraham Lincoln
It is hard to fail, but it is worse never to have tried to succeed. Theodore Roosevelt
I need that kind of patience. Yes, I had two "don't calls". But I came out of church happy and what I wanted to do was tell her and my S-kids to have a happy Easter. So I left a message on her phone. I have undefined emotions running through me. I really can't tell if I'm happy or sad, but I feel like crying. 
