Alright, well we'll stick with Hope for awhile. I feel funny calling you that.
I'm okay. You know it's hard for me to talk about what's in my heart. I struggle with it. I honestly miss my H very much. I've been having more bad days than usual and I'm not sure why. I try not to show these moods to him. You know how I feel though, this is God's hands and I'm trying to stay out of His way. I would love for my H to spend the night with me for no purpose other than he wants to. I would love love love to get a kiss from him. (The one last month doesn't really count because I kissed him during ML and he just kissed me back.) I would love for him to speak words of love for me and tell me that he finds me attractive. These are the things that are in my heart and it upsets me to think about them.
